Today I was able to check off one of my bucket list items at the age of 20! I got to see and hear a president in person. I saw Barack Obama at my college tonight and it was such an amazing and crazy experience! First of all, tickets were given out on Monday at 9AM. There were people who got their place in line at 3:30AM, no joke! And I have no idea why, but apparently..KSU gave out 10,000 tickets and only 4,000 were supposed to get into the MACC. Who knows if that was true but I believe there were 6,000 in the MACC total. Anyway, I went to my first class and the line was literally half a mile long when I got out. So Isaac and I were in line till 11AM-3:45PM..it wasn't so bad until it started raining. Did I mention how much I hate rain?
But...in the end, Obama was worth it.
He has to be one of the most inspirational people I have ever heard and I am so glad that I got to experience something at such a young age. I am so thankful and I feel very inspired, like a colt ready to run.
Besides seeing Obama, I've been busy with school and trying to keep a social life too. Its just been tough because I am tired, all the time. To the point where I am so sick of it I got blood work done yesterday. The doctor I saw on campus believes I am severely anemic or I have a thyroid problem...I go back tomorrow to figure out what's going on. I just don't want to be this tired all the time so I am praying its something minor that can be easily fixed.
In a few more days, it will be a month since I've heard from Eric and I couldn't be more pissed. Last year when he was on ship, he believed that not calling me made time faster...so he hardly called me. It wasn't because he was too busy or too tired, he just didn't call. And now I believe he's repeating what he did last year and once again, I am madder than hell. However, the ship's facebook page has said that phone cards and MOTO mail (which is when you can type an e-mail to your guy and sent it to the ship, where they will print out the message and give it your marine/sailor) hasn't been working. So basically! No one has heard from their sailor/marine in over a month which is pretty freaking sad considering marines/soldiers in Afghanistan have better communication and they are in the desert!!! Either way, Eric has been on that ship since the end of August...the systems stopped working 3 weeks ago which means he could of contacted me before things went psycho.
I have no idea where he is. I have no idea what is going on. And I've gotten to the point where I am so mad that I can't think about Eric or anything that deals with him because if I do, I'll drive myself crazy.
The bad thing about this silence is that it makes me question everything, which is probably just god testing me. I worry about him going back to Japan, getting online and writing me saying he doesn't love me anymore and doesn't want to be with me. Isn't that sad? I just can't let my thoughts go in that direction of negativity, I need to focus on whats going on in front of me: school and waiting.
My last thoughts for this blog entry is this:
I've never heard silence this loud.
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