For the record, I was being sarcastic. Before I was in college, I was annoyed at how cold it would get...now since I have to walk through it (AKA: rain, snow, sleet, ice and wind) I absolutely loathe it. What is even worse is the fact that this state doesn't have seasons, we don't get a spring and we usually get half a summer. For example, here it snows/rains/sleets 9 months out of the year. Randomly, in the middle of fall or winter we will have a few days where its above 50 degrees. Winter goes from November to the end of April, it skips Spring and rains halfway into May. It doesn't really warm up either until halfway through May. So, you can basically understand why I hate this state! I live in Ohio by the way. Did I mention there's nothing here too?
For the past few couple of days I haven't been in the best of moods because Eric left for North Carolina Wednesday. I was a hot mess yesterday! Like, I've gotten upset back when he had to leave for Japan or when we wouldn't be able to talk because he was getting on ship..but yesterday I was stupid upset.
I cried so much that it gave me a headache and I was so worked up by the time he left, I had to take a nap to calm myself down. I was a complete mess. Which was so stupid because I am going to be moving down there in 5 freaking months! I think I was so upset because I just wanted to go with him..right then and there.
I just want to start our lives together. I want to have our own place, our own stuff, our own bed and just a place for us. I am sick of being apart, I realized that more than anything.
I just need to be patient and take one day at a time.
Lord help me.
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