No words.

Things have been kind of crazy lately and in all honesty, I cannot believe tomorrow is Thursday. September is flying by! Not that I'm complaining or anything its just crazy how quickly things are going!

Today I was able to check off one of my bucket list items at the age of 20! I got to see and hear a president in person. I saw Barack Obama at my college tonight and it was such an amazing and crazy experience! First of all, tickets were given out on Monday at 9AM. There were people who got their place in line at 3:30AM, no joke! And I have no idea why, but apparently..KSU gave out 10,000 tickets and only 4,000 were supposed to get into the MACC. Who knows if that was true but I believe there were 6,000 in the MACC total. Anyway, I went to my first class and the line was literally half a mile long when I got out. So Isaac and I were in line till 11AM-3:45PM..it wasn't so bad until it started raining. Did I mention how much I hate rain?

But...in the end, Obama was worth it.

He has to be one of the most inspirational people I have ever heard and I am so glad that I got to experience something at such a young age. I am so thankful and I feel very inspired, like a colt ready to run. 

Besides seeing Obama, I've been busy with school and trying to keep a social life too. Its just been tough because I am tired, all the time. To the point where I am so sick of it I got blood work done yesterday. The doctor I saw on campus believes I am severely anemic or I have a thyroid problem...I go back tomorrow to figure out what's going on. I just don't want to be this tired all the time so I am praying its something minor that can be easily fixed.

In a few more days, it will be a month since I've heard from Eric and I couldn't be more pissed. Last year when he was on ship, he believed that not calling me made time faster...so he hardly called me. It wasn't because he was too busy or too tired, he just didn't call. And now I believe he's repeating what he did last year and once again, I am madder than hell. However, the ship's facebook page has said that phone cards and MOTO mail (which is when you can type an e-mail to your guy and sent it to the ship, where they will print out the message and give it your marine/sailor) hasn't been working. So basically! No one has heard from their sailor/marine in over a month which is pretty freaking sad considering marines/soldiers in Afghanistan have better communication and they are in the desert!!! Either way, Eric has been on that ship since the end of August...the systems stopped working 3 weeks ago which means he could of contacted me before things went psycho.

I have no idea where he is. I have no idea what is going on. And I've gotten to the point where I am so mad that I can't think about Eric or anything that deals with him because if I do, I'll drive myself crazy.

The bad thing about this silence is that it makes me question everything, which is probably just god testing me. I worry about him going back to Japan, getting online and writing me saying he doesn't love me anymore and doesn't want to be with me. Isn't that sad? I just can't let my thoughts go in that direction of negativity, I need to focus on whats going on in front of me: school and waiting. 

My last thoughts for this blog entry is this:

I've never heard silence this loud. 

Oi Vey.

Is it October yet? Or November? I'm ready for fires, my birthday, fall food, fall decor, leaves changing, boots and the holidays. I feel like time is moving soooo slowly! Enough of my wishing..

So first of all, I am so proud of myself for making my blog look pretty! It literally took me a few hours to move this here, add this here and edit a few final touches..but I am happy with the way it looks. Maybe those computer classes on HTML I took in high school were useful afterall.

School is school, but this semester so far has been fantastic. I am having so much fun with Japanese and learning it (the only thing with part of that class that is giving me trouble is the writing. Note: if Hiragana was a person, I would of punched them in the face by now..true story.) I love all the people I live with and I am actually finding it hard to balance my social time with them and my school work! Something I never had to do before, lol!

I tried out for Kent's Glee singing group last week and I completely bombed my audition. Oh my gosh! I was fine right before I walked into it! I knew all the words by heart, I was nervous but it was a good kind of nervous! As soon as I walked into the audition room though...I saw a camera..and completely freaked out. Halfway through I forgot the words and yeah...lol. So I didn't make the group, but just because someone didn't answer their door doesn't mean that I'm not going to keep knocking! Or I'll try another door you know? I'm just proud of myself for putting myself out there.

It was Eric's birthday yesterday, my boy turned 24. I was very sad throughout the day because all I wanted to do was wish him a happy birthday, just a chance for him to listen to me sing to him and say..."Happy Birthday Eric, 24! Wow my future husband is old!" you know? Something just silly...but I just kept wishing my phone would ring...and it never did.

Its been 18 days since I've heard from him. 

My mom and I went to Yankee Peddler yesterday and it was a shock of how different things were. For my entire life (and even before!) that place used to be packed! Vendors and food everywhere..but this year it wasn't even close to what it used to be. But, it was a great day to be outside and I really enjoyed the time with my mother. I just wish someone else could of been there with me.

But, I'm thankful that I have her.

September wishes

I am so glad August is over, that month has to be one of the months I dread the most. Probably because its the end of summer and no matter what you do, its in the back of your mind that your summer is running out.

However, this semester has to be the best schedule/classes I've ever had. One, since I don't have a math course I don't have to go to tutoring for 5 extra hours a week. I literally have two classes a day (minus Wednesday) and I have lots of time to get things done in between. I also have awesome people who I'm living with this year too! I live in a dorm where two rooms share a bathroom (AKA a suite) so I have a roommate and two suitemates. All three of them are so nice and so far its been a lot of fun living with them. Completely different from the past two years I've stayed there, its just a nice atmosphere.

Classes are going great! My history classes are fun and most of them seem to be pretty basic, read the books, write papers and very few midterms in between. Which is amazing because last semester, I literally had midterms every 2-3 weeks, lol. Japanese is my absolute favorite class this semester and I am so glad that I switched my major to be able to take any history class and a language.

My senesi (teacher) is American Japanese and is originally from Ohio. She just got back a few weeks ago from teaching English in Tokyo for the past 4 years. She's very sweet and helpful, I am very lucky that I got a language teacher at Kent who can speak Japanese and English clearly! Most of the language teachers at Kent are foreign and can hardly speak English, lol. The only thing I'm struggling with in Japanese is the characters/writing. I am horrible at drawing but remembering each word/character/symbol that goes with everything AND on top of that drawing them correctly is like ahhhhhhhhh. Hopefully just writing them over and over will make me memorize/draw them perfectly. Did you know that Japan has 3 alphabets?

I heard from Eric the other day, he actually called me which was nice because I hadn't heard his voice in over a month. We talked for a few minutes and then he told me that was going to be the last time I will hear from him in awhile because he was about to go back on ship and float to his locations. It was hard because neither of us wanted to hang up the phone or say goodbye, we literally were silent for like 20 seconds before he said I love you, goodbye and hung up. I pray that his sailing is smooth and the next few months will fly by because I miss him so much. I just want him in the states.

Anyway, I have always liked September because of everything that is going on during the weekends. Yankee Peddler, Mum Festival, Ciderfest and random Flea Markets. I also like to enjoy the last nice warm weather we get and just the fresh start of school. Yankee Peddler though is my absolute favorite, I can't wait for cold cider and roast beef sandwiches, mmmm!

I am going to start a new thing on my blog where at every start of each month where I'll be posting a wish list of items I would like to get over that month. (Trying to fit into the blog world, haha!)

Maybelline lipstick, Sperrys, Maybelline eyebrow pencil, try and get a jar full of extra change,  $15 iTunes card, Kingdom Hearts symbol necklace, lipstick holder and a mermaid necklace from Etsy.

Here's hoping that September turns out to be a good month!